pain!!!!!????!!!

on my way from the car park to the office this mornin, i saw a guy with crutches i bet he jus broke his leg n is learnin to work again.....been there dunnit n i'm not particularly proud......ok i noticed he was without any footwear.....i hav heard of some phony sand therapeutic sturvingz but i jus kept wonderin and again i wanted to cross to the other side n giv him money for a pair of slippers.......euk!!! the road has witnessed all sorts n wot nots he shouldn't be bare feet on it maar! (but in afrikaans) if i did they'ld think i'm some bad person or something or the other geez!!!! i really wish i helped or could hav helped all the same
i hav been told that i like pain........funny......but do i? i wonder!!!
checked the meanin of pain "Pain is the conscious experience of sensorial information and a feeling of unpleasantness that can manifest as a result of nociception.The threshold of pain might have wide variation between individuals."Pain is whatever the experiencing person says it is; existing whenever he or she says it does.”
so do i?...................why do i hav the wanton urges to chew and swallow my one tongue, of scratch my skin so loud or chew soluble aspirin??................ i honestly don't know, sometimes i think i suppress pain instead..... i ask myself why does this hurt me? tho i'm never in denial
its pain it hurts so much but then if only i let it hurt me longer than it ought to......
thankfully i get help from my bible, oh! when people say i'm always happy....... they are right eventually...................i hav learnt to b thankfull even for the pain i feel or experience

....... the internet is energy zappin really!!!!
gosh when i was far younger we had tym for everything before the day ended but now the internet just seems to hav its pull on us aaagh!!!!! all of us
my 10year old cousin spends more tym chattin or something else, seems she really isn't bothered about the tv anymore.......she was sayin to me over the weekend that she won't get on her computer cos if she opens one thing it will lead to another then another......n before she knows it she's spent too long a tym on the internet!!!!! talk about the 'bad' of the internet!!!

.......i'm soo glad this mornin.................i am in one of those estatic la-la-la singin moods
i'm jus happy i can't see my low points!!!!!!**i'm out with a big smile on my face chasing jinny joes!!!{don't ask wot those are.........go n read}!!!!yes i'm happy i know y and again i don't............... i think i will go to the awards thingy with my stranger...................my dad says i can besides he won't b home so i'll b bored n all................ok i lie!!!! i won't b bored cos i'll hav tv n all and he's always complainin i hug the tv too
he also says i shldn't get home too late oops the stuff is pretty late already lol!!!!!

i'm seatin at work, wonderin "am i star hungry?".......... i always wonder,there's always something on my mind
my mother says people hav lines n grow white hairs on their heads becos the worry too much or work too hard............with all the stuff i wonder about.......am i worried?!! would i start havin lines or somethin??

i'ld love to go snorkelin in brazil or anywhere nice and water skiing in austrailia and capetown
ok ok and also dive for the oysters and the pearls i'll wear on my weddin day...... lol!!!!!!!!