rants of an IT fly girl

Sometimes I’m not socially awkward, Sometimes I am Sometimes I just want my body to be in place and my mind far from the place Sometimes I don’t want to be standing, Sometimes I don’t want to be lying down Sometimes I am afraid of the unknown, Sometimes I don’t want to talk to the people that matter so much to me To them who geniunely ask “ how are you doing?” Sometimes I don’t want morning to come and the brightness, that brightness Sometimes I know it’s just for a moment then brightness will be beautiful again

This past week has been a week of reading about people who took their own lives...this is always a sad thing for the families because death is never a happy thing. But this past week has also been a 'something else' for me... I started the week a bit shaken but good always triumphs ✊😊 The first important lesson I learnt is, I have to cut of Lyft . Nope! no more! The second important lesson I learnt is - Be grateful for the good people that surround you I learned other lessons too like why the roads here are not black or dark... I just fully understood my Mom's prayer - Lord choose the right friends for my children. Thank you Jesus for family, friemily, friends and amazing company. We were welcomed to two lovely homes today, we were fed, we played games and we laughed alot. To someone else that's like yea whatever, but to me it sure did count. I think i should pick up swimming lessons, so i can pick up surfing lessons. Out looking at the ocean today reminde...

**sips lemon flavoured green tea** this isn't going to be a long post, if it gets too long i'd break it into two I spent my weekend volunteering and it was different. By the way, I am drinking green tea for the first time, as I type. I honestly don't know why I even bought it. It is also raining in my part of the sunshine state but that is cool. Saturday morning was a little cold regardless I went out to start my Day 1 volunteering at a local art fest. It was different, well things are different here sigh, sometimes it gets to me and I have the why-am-I-doing-this or why-am-I-even-here moments. Day 2 was shorter Anyway, I went and it didn't hurt to speak with other people. I also noticed all sorts of people a lady was pleasantly surprised at the-black-girl, her eyes just had the 'wondering look' some people just walk away another lady was old and clearly wanted to pass time watching younger guys the funny ones, -the lady who wanted to make known tha...

On Sunday, I struggled. In the early hours of the day, before the Sun rose I struggled with having to do something out of my comfort zone Before I talk about that I will tell you where the struggle came from I had worked till 3am on a kitchen asset model in Maya I had strained my eyes, tired my hands and exhausted my thinking abilities   And then my mind played games, so I struggled By evening time, after having being privileged to listen to a great man expound a part of the 2nd chapter of Mark's gospel I had calmed down from my struggle The fight was all in my mind The struggle came from unseen scenes I was playing in my head Before the Moon shined bright, it dawned on me "I am living my blessed life" Funny thing my bank card got lost, but God's peace enveloped me

of procrastination, its been weeks since i left a post here... I have been busy sometimes, playful sometimes, and procrastinated typing most times of tightropes, I loved loved the soundtrack of The Greatest Showman, sigh, totally loved and i still sing the songs - my best being Tightrope some people long for a life that is simple and planned... but is all an adventure that comes with a breathtaking view... I think i am at a point in my life that I can relate to the lyrics of the song, living in a new place and working on my life goal. The story was the weakest link tho I didn't feel January was long like everyone kept saying on twitter but... I had so much to deal with at various times that the days flew by, some other days were a bit slow tho... In the last 6 weeks I have learned the Maya strings and I have been modeling, I have met amazing people, I have been cold and wondered why, I have been stopped and told i had a beautiful smile and the best - I have learned even m...

Thankful, sooooo thankful We are heading into 2018 and can I scream how Faithful God is 2017 was an interesting year... I took action and it made me bolder, happier, stronger and looking forward to 2018 When I look back at 2017, I will think of the year of a whole of different and new. I will remember the year I started on the path of my animator dream and the sunshine state move. I will remember the year I was carless for a few months and learned a new way to 'walk' I will remember the year I dragged a mattress from Ikea, omg I will remember the start of the RISE model and the work-play-fit-push schedule I will remember the year I got to work with my bestest cousin (please don't tell'im) I will remember the year I bought cheap toilet paper and well learnt a lesson I will remember the year I learned to play cornholes I will remember the year I listened to Funbi's Hallelujah, Simi's Smile for me, Luis Fonsi's Despacito I will remember the ye...

It snowed in London, and the delays and cancellations were but of course EPIC. London needs to learn and adhere to the Boy Scout motto - the previous and the current one. It didn't snow out here, but it did in New Orleans and Houston. It was icy cold, Lord knows like London I wasn't so prepared. I was closer tho. Last Saturday was really cold, my hoodie helped out. I had ordered a blanket the previous week. I am really just slipping into new place, new culture ish... A part of me isn't liking, the cold weather hasn't helped and my room is still a bit unfurnished. I got a table at last and I am working on a room transformation project that I am loving. Thankfully, Pinterest is still amazing. I just finished reading, One S'more summer by Beth Merlin, I loved it. I am looking forward to lots of cups of hot chocolate, tacos and plenty reading for my holiday. Another road trip coming soon, ha! the Bliss traveling brings