rants of an IT fly girl

ditto, last day in december dear 2008 i'm so glad to be able to say goodbye to you it has been tough, honestly tough we have had good laughs and long tears we have had lovely times and crying times the sad and down striken days and months, the joys from lying out on the beach simply bein happy the weeping from deep down in our hearts over loved ones who died 2008, you had equal number of sad times and happy times but u know how humans are......i think whenever i had a happy time.....u made sure there was a sad one lurkin in place there were days i just didn't want to end, there were times i wished there was a reverse button there were times i also wished a foward button existed there were times i wished the bad dreams would go away so i could wake up to gladness only that they were not bad dreams but real stuff i am thankful for family, friends and the

i am havin one of those days that includes me shutting out the people around me and me thinkin and thinkin till.... crying over spilled milk they say is a waste of time how about crying before the milk is spilled? or when the milk is being spilled crying...................we jus do it because we can it never changes anything we loose body salt in the tears we shed we keep wiping them away from our eyes and they keep coming down till we tell ourselves enough of it already but do we really feel better? ........i hav concluded .............crying brings determination the determination that helps to keep us going, growing, moving......just being alive again i'm so sad again today where is my joy and happiness? spent last night reading my diary.......and then wondering ...........life........... we are born...............helpless babies in this world we grow up with friends.........nursery school ..........more friends in the elementary school then secondary school............ we loose

..........facebook really has helped change lots of things ......and communication read my boss sagie's status..................she prayed for peace for the soul of loved one who just passed away ...............i left a comment...........sorry then my sister shouts to me...............a little while later.........suur is dead blood rushed to my face and i said 'no it isn't him' then i send sagie a message its him...........from wot she replies to me i say to my sister, i hav to call emeka he will know what happened then she says emeka's dead too more blood rushes to my face i hav so many questions in my head......................many questions that would never be answered emeka for ever full of life even when he's just been annoyed by someone ........my hands are totally shaking as i type......... he always had one business proposal or the other always on about how he'll make money then his plans on how he'll spend the money would follow then he'll t

and then i'm 24 ......jus like that *zap!* lmao!!!!!! twasn't like another day.....................aaagh twas my birthday!!!!!! tho don't feel 24 jus yet but my mouth sure does....................... it is the growth of last wisdom tooth - teeth whichever sha down 1/1 posterior molar..........something like that...............that's how see it on my dental cards o think and there's this 'orrible sour pain, a little swellin and lots of aspirins ....................seems painful to b 24 ooooo!!!! wishin you a merry christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this morning was officially my saddest ever morning this year ...no thanks to Lloyds TSB!!!! had to get to Llyod’s bank and they really made an effort to spoil my day thanks to Adrian Monk……..the dectective from the tv show the day was ok eventually spent 35mins standing all in the name of waiting for a customer care person….and I thot GT bank was officially the worst bank try Llyods and like me, you will want to turn your back slap if you want! I wasn’t self pityin I was simply burnt and totally hated every minute I spent there… n I still do To make matters worse their Christmas decorations were soooooo The tree in a tiny corner had blue and green bows, blue green and silver balls and a huge silver and purple bow at the top of the tree The last time I checked green and red were the lovely colours of Christmas….it still is If they make efforts to impress their customers I haven’t noticed, tho their tv adverts are really catchy it totally ends there! Met this older lady on the bus this